There is an increasing inner resistance in me for the past few weeks to meet what lies within. The desire not to meet the inner energies is a very powerful and overwhelming one at times. As if the light was not always strong enought to meet my inner tensions, whether they are physical, emotional or mental ones.
The great tension building up inside my body lies in the lack of doing enough physical exercice, I believe. Most of the time, I find myself locked into this world of studying, phone conversations, negotiations, being online, replying to emails, posting or channeling, etc. This is most of the time at the expense of the outer body needs that needs my attention and care also.
With the summer, comes a certain amount of letting go of the outer world. I was hoping that I would be able to reconnect within more than usual, however, the tension in my body is overpowering the will to meet the inner light. I mean the effort of really trying, not just thinking that i am trying or just thinking that I am with my inner light.
Very often the head has immedaite ready-made answers for me and cliches. The head ‘thinks’ it knows it all, it thinks that it knows what to say and to think. I have come over time to become very suspicious of the ready available replies coming from others and from within. I have come to understand that the easiest route, the path of least resistance is not to be trusted most of the time, no matter how appealing, attracitve, or logic it seems.
It also seems to me that it is desired to have conscious love in all that we do in the outer world. Many of us just ‘do’ a job, in order to get it ‘done’. However, I am seeing that, for myself, the I AM presence is rarely with me as soon as I am engaged in movement. This automatic and instinctive reflexes of doing, moving, just kicks in, at the expence of the I AM divine presence.
So I invite you all to acknowledge the inner divine resistance, to see it work, salute it, and thank it for showing up, for it too is of divine order. See the resistance, and a new door will open inside of you I trust. Hopefully that door is the door to conscious love.